move

you may not want to loose me, but you don't want to keep me either

so i am done

much love & respect

twist

Life is interesting.

A sudden, and unexpected change has lead to a possibility of a beautiful friendship.

One that I am blessed with.

Life does love its many twists and turns, and you look hard enough, the blessing can then be found.

"Life is a great big canvas,
and you should throw all the paint on it you can." Danny Kaye

much love & respect

Blessed

Its been a rough few months, where I have been tested in every area of my life.

I have been tested emotionally, spiritually and even financially.

I was utterly lost, and felt like a ship drifting in the sea with a desperate need for an anchor.

No matter where I looked, I was not able to find an anchor in an individual soul.

Today, reality set it, and I realized that I am truly blessed.

I was unable to find an anchor, because I was looking for one, not realizing that I had it in abundance, in the form of good friends, who were and still are willing to to always provide me with a helping hand.

I realized that though I don't have much in terms of physical wealth, and even though I have made many mistakes, and hurt many, God has blessed me with amazing friends. So I must have done something right somewhere, some time.

I realized that I am a true oddball, and I am proud of it. I measure my life in the oddest manner. The result of my actions in this would would only truly be seen at my deathbed, at my funeral.

It is warped, but it is also true. I know that if I were to drop dead today, I would be blessed with a room full of loved ones saying their final goodbye, and more importantly blessing me with their prayers.

When I needed help today, I was blessed with offers. And even more so, the highlight of my day, the biggest blessing of my day, was the ability to be of service to family.

A distant relative is getting married, and today was the traditional henna ceremony, where henna designs are drawn onto the hands and legs of the bride, and also other female relatives. I was blessed, because I was asked to help with the drawing of the designs for the children.

I was blessed because I got to connect with my cousins and see my beautiful nieces.

Beautiful bright and well mannered children.

I was blessed to see and hear the conversations of the tweens. In fact there was a fourteen year old with more make-up then me!

It was a fantastic evening, and I was blessed and privelaged to be there. Thank you God.

much love & respect

one

its amazing how many footprints accompany you and i in the journey of life.

its amazing, how in the big picture, how temporary travel partners make a difference in the choice of paths i chose.

its amazing how one month could make such a difference.

much love & respect

filters, pieces and time

perhaps what they say is true

alcohol loosens the tongue

and removes the filters

and reveals the thoughts of the mind

filters that have been in grained..by the thoughts of society

the social rules and the social norms

that builds walls and facades

so though it is wrong

perhaps once in a lifetime, get tipsy, get drunk

in any way you choose,

the poison of your choice, alcohol, meditation, or even shrooms

speak from your heart

let your tongue run loose

without thinking of the consequences, which will come any which way

simply fly or if not soar for the moment

because a moment is all that we have got

--
yas

Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely- Auguste Rodine

much love & respect

gifts

Gifts

My random mind decided to take a walk, and ended up on the topic of gifts.

As a typical sentimental Cancerian, I LOVE my memories. Let me clarify, I am not just talking about random memories, but I tend to surround myself with items or ‘stuff’ that all have emotional value to it.

I ‘stole’ a poster from my moms storage, as it was one that was printed back in the 80’s in the dot matrix format, of my sister and I. I collect teddy bears, and each one has a story of its own. The purse my sister gave me for a random new year, the coffee mug I got from a trip to Universal Studios with my sisters for my 30^th birthday, the earrings given to me by my former students. The belt from my bestie from a trip to Bali. The watch from my graduation. The magnets on my fridge.. the one thing all my ‘stuff’ have in common is my memories. My favourite jewellery all have stories and memories attached. I have noticed that the ones that don’t, collect dust.

So while my thoughts took a random walk, I suddenly realised that as much as I love food and gadgets, once it is consumed or well used, there is nothing left to keep!

Food is obvious, once consumed, its gone. Gadgets, though used often, after some time, it does breakdown, and then it would need to be upgraded. So the old one is useless and collects dust.

So I wonder, how odd am I to have these thoughts..has it ever cross your mind? What is your thought on this? Do you do the same?

much love & respect

haunted

Its interesting to see

The initial sweep

and what was won

and the price that is to be paid

till then I am haunted by memories

much love & respect