Its been a rough few months, where I have been tested in every area of my life.
I have been tested emotionally, spiritually and even financially.
I was utterly lost, and felt like a ship drifting in the sea with a desperate need for an anchor.
No matter where I looked, I was not able to find an anchor in an individual soul.
Today, reality set it, and I realized that I am truly blessed.
I was unable to find an anchor, because I was looking for one, not realizing that I had it in abundance, in the form of good friends, who were and still are willing to to always provide me with a helping hand.
I realized that though I don't have much in terms of physical wealth, and even though I have made many mistakes, and hurt many, God has blessed me with amazing friends. So I must have done something right somewhere, some time.
I realized that I am a true oddball, and I am proud of it. I measure my life in the oddest manner. The result of my actions in this would would only truly be seen at my deathbed, at my funeral.
It is warped, but it is also true. I know that if I were to drop dead today, I would be blessed with a room full of loved ones saying their final goodbye, and more importantly blessing me with their prayers.
When I needed help today, I was blessed with offers. And even more so, the highlight of my day, the biggest blessing of my day, was the ability to be of service to family.
A distant relative is getting married, and today was the traditional henna ceremony, where henna designs are drawn onto the hands and legs of the bride, and also other female relatives. I was blessed, because I was asked to help with the drawing of the designs for the children.
I was blessed because I got to connect with my cousins and see my beautiful nieces.
Beautiful bright and well mannered children.
I was blessed to see and hear the conversations of the tweens. In fact there was a fourteen year old with more make-up then me!
It was a fantastic evening, and I was blessed and privelaged to be there. Thank you God.
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