yasmin with an 'e'

twist

2012-01-26T17:55:00.000+08:00

Life is interesting.

A sudden, and unexpected change has lead to a possibility of a beautiful friendship.

One that I am blessed with.

Life does love its many twists and turns, and you look hard enough, the blessing can then be found.

"Life is a great big canvas,
and you should throw all the paint on it you can." Danny Kaye

much love & respect

Blessed

2012-01-25T23:59:00.002+08:00

Its been a rough few months, where I have been tested in every area of my life.

I have been tested emotionally, spiritually and even financially.

I was utterly lost, and felt like a ship drifting in the sea with a desperate need for an anchor.

No matter where I looked, I was not able to find an anchor in an individual soul.

Today, reality set it, and I realized that I am truly blessed.

I was unable to find an anchor, because I was looking for one, not realizing that I had it in abundance, in the form of good friends, who were and still are willing to to always provide me with a helping hand.

I realized that though I don't have much in terms of physical wealth, and even though I have made many mistakes, and hurt many, God has blessed me with amazing friends. So I must have done something right somewhere, some time.

I realized that I am a true oddball, and I am proud of it. I measure my life in the oddest manner. The result of my actions in this would would only truly be seen at my deathbed, at my funeral.

It is warped, but it is also true. I know that if I were to drop dead today, I would be blessed with a room full of loved ones saying their final goodbye, and more importantly blessing me with their prayers.

When I needed help today, I was blessed with offers. And even more so, the highlight of my day, the biggest blessing of my day, was the ability to be of service to family.

A distant relative is getting married, and today was the traditional henna ceremony, where henna designs are drawn onto the hands and legs of the bride, and also other female relatives. I was blessed, because I was asked to help with the drawing of the designs for the children.

I was blessed because I got to connect with my cousins and see my beautiful nieces.

Beautiful bright and well mannered children.

I was blessed to see and hear the conversations of the tweens. In fact there was a fourteen year old with more make-up then me!

It was a fantastic evening, and I was blessed and privelaged to be there. Thank you God.

much love & respect

one

2012-01-21T16:58:00.002+08:00

its amazing how many footprints accompany you and i in the journey of life.

its amazing, how in the big picture, how temporary travel partners make a difference in the choice of paths i chose.

its amazing how one month could make such a difference.

much love & respect

filters, pieces and time

2012-01-14T00:10:00.000+08:00

perhaps what they say is true

alcohol loosens the tongue

and removes the filters

and reveals the thoughts of the mind

filters that have been in grained..by the thoughts of society

the social rules and the social norms

that builds walls and facades

so though it is wrong

perhaps once in a lifetime, get tipsy, get drunk

in any way you choose,

the poison of your choice, alcohol, meditation, or even shrooms

speak from your heart

let your tongue run loose

without thinking of the consequences, which will come any which way

simply fly or if not soar for the moment

because a moment is all that we have got

--
yas

Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely- Auguste Rodine

much love & respect

gifts

2012-01-09T17:30:00.000+08:00

Gifts

My random mind decided to take a walk, and ended up on the topic of gifts.

As a typical sentimental Cancerian, I LOVE my memories. Let me clarify, I am not just talking about random memories, but I tend to surround myself with items or ‘stuff’ that all have emotional value to it.

I ‘stole’ a poster from my moms storage, as it was one that was printed back in the 80’s in the dot matrix format, of my sister and I. I collect teddy bears, and each one has a story of its own. The purse my sister gave me for a random new year, the coffee mug I got from a trip to Universal Studios with my sisters for my 30^th birthday, the earrings given to me by my former students. The belt from my bestie from a trip to Bali. The watch from my graduation. The magnets on my fridge.. the one thing all my ‘stuff’ have in common is my memories. My favourite jewellery all have stories and memories attached. I have noticed that the ones that don’t, collect dust.

So while my thoughts took a random walk, I suddenly realised that as much as I love food and gadgets, once it is consumed or well used, there is nothing left to keep!

Food is obvious, once consumed, its gone. Gadgets, though used often, after some time, it does breakdown, and then it would need to be upgraded. So the old one is useless and collects dust.

So I wonder, how odd am I to have these thoughts..has it ever cross your mind? What is your thought on this? Do you do the same?

much love & respect

haunted

2012-01-05T11:43:00.001+08:00

Its interesting to see

The initial sweep

and what was won

and the price that is to be paid

till then I am haunted by memories

much love & respect

bad day

2012-01-04T23:57:00.003+08:00

Dear God,

Today was a horrible day on so many levels, socially, emotionally, and even career wise. It was all i could do not to break down in public. Please let this be the worst day of the year, simply because I know that i can handle it, and anything else that you think i need to learn, in small doses.

much love & respect

judge

2012-01-04T11:43:00.001+08:00

grrr....why do people have to judge?

and judge so harshly?

i know its human...but to my face, when i said i dont have to have it to my face?

ai ya...

much love & respect

goodness gracious me

2012-01-02T22:45:00.003+08:00

goodness gracious me

why is it you,

every where i see?

a step forward

a step back

this in consistency

will make me a quack

much love & respect

2012

2012-01-01T22:02:00.001+08:00

i wonder what the future brings..

down a rabbit hole we go!

much love & respect

Seven years

2012-01-01T20:13:00.001+08:00

Seven years ago on this date, I moved out of my family home, and created a life of my own. I learnt what it meant to be self sufficient, and to stand on my own two feet.

I remember moving into an empty room in a stranger’s house, the little furniture I had was either donated by friends, or cheaply purchased. For some reason, I don’t have a picture of that room, but all it had was a single bed, a cheap fabric wardrobe, a work desk and a mirror.

I was lucky; the stranger has now become a life long friend. I learnt to do my own laundry and buy my own groceries. I remember waking up the first morning, starved. And with a sudden jolt, I realized that for the first time in my life, I had no food, and that if I wanted some, I’d need to do groceries.

Since then, I have moved to other places, other rooms, and eventually into a home of my own, where I am the main tenant. I am blessed with a great housemate, who has become one of my closest friends.

During this time, life had taught me many lessons, both tough and easy. I have changed jobs, and even industries. I have done trainings, met awesome people (and not so awesome people), attended weddings, celebrated births and birthdays, engagements, and even went ring shopping with a friend.

I went on my first holiday with friends, went on various family holidays. Had an emergency surgery, went for physiotherapy, was involved in an accident (all different occasions I assure you). I rediscovered my passion for painting, and learned to cook various dishes, and make awesome salad.

I’ve straightened and premed and coloured my hair. Discovered my first white hair, did my first free lance job. Assessed my fear of heights. Been a coach, and been coached. Made a stand for others, and played a part in changing life for the better. I have met those who have left and I hope will continue to leave their footprints in my life. I have faced death, and illnesses.

I have done things I said I could never do, and even did things that I said I never would. It has been an absolute roller coaster ride. And I hope that this year brings around more positive change, abundance of love and laughter, emotional and financial prosperity, for both you and me

much love & respect

result check

2011-12-30T12:49:00.002+08:00

based on results i did not follow

"my vision and commitment dictate my action, not my feelings, assessments or evaluations"

FAIL

much love & respect

2

2011-12-29T21:29:00.001+08:00

as much as logic dictates that it is not my concern, the bad english kills me!

much love & respect

same message..different take

2011-12-29T19:27:00.001+08:00

much love & respect

juggle

2011-12-29T18:13:00.001+08:00

ever feel like ur part of a juggling act?

much love & respect

thoughts

2011-12-29T07:56:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wish that i could empty thoughts from my head, as one would empty a coin forma tin

much love & respect

Change

2011-12-28T17:53:00.001+08:00

In times of change or even turmoil
I am blessed to have access to a library of knowledge
Words of wisdom derived from a wealth of experience

I am in a place on my life, where I am not sure if this chapter, would be one of those horribly short chapters, which plays a significant impact on the overall story line, or if it would be a long and eventful one.

Amongst the many things I am constantly reminded of is
There is a price to pay for every choice made.
Some cause gain, and others loss
I have been reminded that there are multiple views of the same object, a blessing or a curse?
I have been reminded that I have many blessings in my life
I have also been made aware that though every blessing is a privilege, not every privilege is a blessing
I have been reminded that while some voids are filled, others are startlingly empty

So here is to change, and the strange, funny, unpredictable rabbit hole of a journey that it leads us to..

And as I ponder on all of this – I am reminded that the only constant in life is change..

So Happy 2012, and I hope that like me, you are both excited and scared of what time will bring.

much

Nothing is a waste of time if you use the experience wisely- Auguste Rodin

xoxo

Compartments

2011-12-28T17:37:00.001+08:00

pockets, drawers, boxes and even slots
how well do you compartmentalize your world?

much love & respect

Simple random things that make me happy

2011-11-01T11:05:00.000+08:00

The smell of hot coffee in the morning
Shoes..pretty shoes
Cookie monster
Chocolate chip cookies
Ollie the cat watching tv with me
Disney movies
Good chocolate
Baileys
Movie nights
A good steak
A meal with friends
Weight loss on the scale (especially if I have not done anything about it)
Curling up on my couch with a good book
Knowing I have completed my to-do list for the day
The sound of the ocean
A walk on the beach..

So what makes you happy?

much love & respect

2011-09-07T17:56:00.000+08:00

much love & respect

Ramathan & eid & jobs

2011-08-24T14:34:00.000+08:00

it has been a stretchy month, more so during the last week. When I say stretchy, it means a month out of my comfort zone, a month that has stretched me like a rubber band..its been trying and also good for growth.

It is the month of Ramathan, the traditional muslim month of fasting. It is the month before the Muslim month long celebration of Eid. Muslims abstain from food, drink and physical needs during daylight hours. During Ramadan, every part of the body must be restrained. The tongue must be restrained from backbiting and gossip. The eyes must restrain themselves from looking at unlawful things. The hand must not touch or take anything that does not belong to it. The ears must refrain from listening to idle talk or obscene words. The feet must refrain from going to sinful places. In such a way, every part of the body observes the fast. (source: about.com/ramathan)

Temper needs to be held,so does the tongue. So when somethings irks me, I cant simply go yell or tell them off, instead I have to be reasonable and calm, and work something out. Easier said then done, especially when someone pisses me of.

Good deeds and favors should be done in abundance. What irked me is that favors were expected and thanks not given. So yes it has been a stretchy month.

Perhaps its age, but there is a general lack of excitement, but this year, the month of fasting has gone by quickly, and in all honesty, I would like the Eid celebration to be over and done with. It seems that its a stressful event, and not a celebratory one. With internal family politics and breakdowns, plus other crucial members who would be absent, I do dread this event.

Other interesting updates would be that I have resigned from my job, and I am currently serving my one month's notice. What's next ? I have no clue, however, I do know that the very thought of it puts butterflies in my tummy, because I will be wondering where my next meal is from. Meanwhile, for some reason, I seem to be hemorrhaging money! Unexpected bills have popped up, paying for meals that I have not ordered…eeeeekkkks…

Oh, also an unexpected trip has popped up. A family trip, which means that more money will be spent…all this simply adds to my anxiety.. In all honesty, I feel obligated to go, and I don't really want to go.

It sounds great, a break before a fresh start. Problem is, i have no clue where and when this start will be, so I am more stressed then anything!

Hmm…so much for a cheery pick-me-up update…
this post is worrying and depressing!
But since someone else has read this, do keep me in mind if you find a post for a communications specialist!

much love & respect

surrender

2011-08-11T11:20:00.001+08:00

its the end of the chapter and i have surrendered after a year of trying
i am not cut out for sales
sales simply drives me crazy
and i in turn drive my team crazy
so i have resigned..
this very fact, has made sleep a whole lot easier and sweeter..
now i just need a new job pls

much love & respect

qotd

2011-07-26T11:09:00.001+08:00

Generosity and gratitude, turn good into great

much love & respect

News updates

2011-07-15T11:27:00.000+08:00

I usually don get involved in politics at any level, however, two articles that popped up on facebook simply drove me crazy!

the first being an article on the Queen of England wearing yellow when she met the Malaysian Prime Minister, Najib Tun Razak, and therefore is in support of Bersih. Perhaps, she does have a witty sense of humor, but the assumption seems to be taken too far. Since the colour of royalty in Malaysia is yellow, would that mean the Sultans & the Agong wear yellow, they are in support of Bersih.

I am in support for a clean election. I believe that elected officials, are government servants, where by their main job is to SERVE THE PEOPLE. I get it, that not all of them would be clean politicians, and they would have other agenda's on their plate. However, as said before, the main job is not to fill their private coffers first, to the point that it overflows, and then serve the public. Because, if we are being honest, when it comes to greedy self serving people, there isnt enough money in the world to satisfy them!

( actual article found here : http://www.malaysia-chronicle.com/index.php?option=com_k2&view=item&id=15870%3Aqueen-bersih-meets-najib&Itemid=2)

The second article is one where the state government, specifically the state Woman, Family Development and Welfare committee blames social network sites for extra marital affairs. It makes it sound that every malaysian is incapable of being responsible for holding an agreement, and is unwilling to be responsible for their own actions, ie cheating, because there is always something or someone to blame. In the past, blame was put on young women, for the age factor, women whom were dresses provocatively, due to fitting clothes and make-up, and other non-sensicle reasons.

actual article found here : http://www.malaysia-chronicle.com/index.php?option=com_k2&view=item&id=15885%3Athe-online-marriage-wreckers&Itemid=4

At times like this, it makes it horrible and embarassing to be a Malaysian!

much love & respect

Bersih (clean)

2011-07-11T11:46:00.001+08:00

it has been the oddest of weekends, don't get me wrong, i had a beautiful time, which is the reason it was odd.

this was the weekend of the infamous bersih 2.0 rally, and this is where people of the nation called for change. Malaysia has pretty much only had one ruling party in its 50 odd years of indipendance, and as a result, this party has become complaicent on the needs of the nation. Congressmen and ministers forget, that their umbrella title is a government servent. in short, their job is to serve the people. they were elected by the people to do this, to be a voice for the people in decisions for the nation.

from where i stand, it seems to me, their main purpose of being in the seat is to fill their own coffers. i am not naive to believe that that politicians all have to be clean (although this would be fantastic in the ideal world), however, the people should also benefit from them doing their jobs.

the governments struggle to keep the ruling party in its place is starting to feel like a dictatorship. the police were firing chemical lasted water and tear gases into trapped groups of people. how is this a crowd disperse technique when there isn't a route for the crowd to disperse?

perhaps the police did what they were instructed to by their superiors, but dont they think? what convinced them to shoot (water cannons and tear gasses) their own people? when will they stop and think of what they were doing? will they simply follow blindly like the Nazi's? will we become a dictatorship?

updates
Youtube play list http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL40BBE1FF3E2C547D

BBC: http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-pacific-14076424

Marina Mahatir's (daughter of the former premier) view: http://rantingsbymm.blogspot.com/2011/07/my-bersih-20-experience.html

Suane's view (popular Malaysian blogger) view http://www.suanie.net/2011/07/10/suanies-experience-at-the-bersih-2-0-rally-on-09-july-2011-at-puduraya/

much love & respect

relationships is teamwork

2011-07-07T16:30:00.002+08:00

Recently i helped facilitate a kids training, where one of the core learnings from the training was about the importance of teamwork. One of the games play, is where two people sit back-to-back with knees bent and elbows locked, and then try to stand up by leaning on each other. Once this is done without falling down, add a third person. After each successful attempt, add another person until a large group is formed.

I was just thinking about the mechanics of a good relationship, and I realized that it is similar to the game. Both partners need to be able to trust each other to lean on each other, and to know that there is someone for them to lean on. If one partner took over, both would fail to stand. If one partner refused to take the other's weight, again, both would fail to stand. In short, both would loose.

Perhaps this is common knowledge, perhaps this is something new for you, as it was a lightbulb moment for me. Either way, I do hope that this short post is of service to you, and you take this into account when you choose a worthy relationship for yourself.

much love & respect

Years

2011-07-04T18:24:00.001+08:00

30 came and went, and I am glad it did..it was a roller coaster ride, with many life lessons. It was a struggle, and in many way's I feel like I had just survived the year, and not lived it. Bitter and painful lessons were learnt.

Thus far, I have lived my life without regrets, however, if I could go back in time, I would probably change that incident, as it did change me.

However, the past is the past, it cant be changed. I struggle not to carry that load with me, and instead focused on the blessings. I played the Samurai Game, which gave me the opportunity to look at how I played in my game of life. Along with that came the realisation, that if I kept living this way, I would be a friend to many, and special to none, in short, I would be alone in my life. An island.

31 was kick started with abundance. I got everything that I wanted, right down to the correct parking space. I had great dinner with friends, a meal with loved ones, a new Mac, a watch I was lusting after, household items, a new look for my home, an even a book..I think this birthday was one of absolute abundance..and I am so greatful. I think that this is an ideal way to start a new decade and a new chapter in my life.

much love & respect

QOTD : Fear

2011-06-22T14:05:00.000+08:00

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
- Marianne Williamson

Each time we face our fear, we gain strength, courage, and confidence in the doing

“FEAR is an acronym in the English language for "False Evidence Appearing Real"” -Neale Donald Walsch

much love & respect

QOTD :TUT

2011-06-09T10:23:00.000+08:00

All is well, You don't have to like or love everything or everyone, not in the usual sense. Injustices and villains always abound during primitive times. You knew this would be true before you chose this life, just as you knew that the good and the beauty would far exceed the bad and the ugly.

much love & respect

Me no share

2011-05-26T12:55:00.001+08:00

Dear Universe,
Please note that I do not share two things in life; men (in terms of dating) and a chocolate chip cookie.
Therefore please only send me single men and abundance of chocolate chip cookies (if you want me to share the cookies)

Thank you.

much love & respect

wants

2011-05-24T12:50:00.002+08:00

i have a wish list..actually it is a want list..
and since i do believe in the law of attraction..i am putting it out to the universe..

1- make over for my home..
- the hall - which needs a coat of paint, and curtains and wall hangings- so it looks like home!
- my bedroom - a warm and feminine room
- the store room - the space needs to be utilised effectively!

*update

halls a WIP, curtains are up, now for hooks to hang frames & paint for the walls..

for the rooms, i need a new bed & clothes hanger

what needs to be done..
- a friend to help me get energised and get me to get rid of the useless and bring in the useful!

2- new electronic gadgets!
either a netbook, an ipad or a android gadget to read, surf and play games on social media!

3- holiday to Bangkok!
-last week of november or 1st week of december..

much love & respect

QOTD: Tagore

2011-05-09T11:53:00.000+08:00

India celebrated this great man's life a few days ago..here are a few of my favourite quotes..lil bites, which is a mouthful of wisdom..

A mind all logic is like a knife all blade. It makes the hand bleed that uses it
Bigotry tries to keep truth safe in its hand with a grip that kills it.
By plucking her petals, you do not gather the beauty of the flower.
Death is not extinguishing the light; it is only putting out the lamp because the dawn has come.

much love & respect

Note from the Universe

2011-04-18T12:55:00.001+08:00

Though folks never suspect this in their times of crises, no one is ever more than a few wispy thoughts away from a rebound, breakthrough, or blazing new trails with friends, in love.

much love & respect

Note from the Universe

2011-04-12T19:33:00.001+08:00

It's like everyone's given seeds that are capable of growing into the garden of their dreams, but no one's been told they even have them. Then, when they see their neighbor's garden growing, whether it's because their neighbor actually found their seeds or accidentally spilled them, there's a rush to see what's happening. In fact, whole industries are built around the buying, selling, and trading of other people's gardens. Agents are hired, sales teams assembled, and sometimes stocks and bonds are issued. Vendors compete, lawyers are hired, and accountants are sued. There are mergers and acquisitions, buyouts and takeovers, and of course 401k's, company picnics, and vacation days.

There are seeds that grow into private gardens. Seeds that grow into best sellers. And seeds that grow into happy families.

It's quite a riot, and often good fun, but would you believe that one of the biggest impediments one has to discovering their own seeds, these days, is their fascination with the gardens of others?

Hoe,
The Universe

much love & respect

last nite's workshop

2011-04-08T18:39:00.000+08:00

Kelly Poulos, a fantastic coach was in town, and held a short workshop for the graduates at Asiaworks, and I was blessed enough to be there.

She spoke about goals, and our relationship with it. We as human beings are the ones that set our goals, and agree to it. And yet, more often then not, we spend a whole load of time resisting and hating the goal itself. She had asked us ' what is your relationship with your goal?'. Is it love? hate? commitment?

Is it 'A' goal or is it 'MINE'? something I own with all my heart, and has the ability to effect me emotionally, no matter which way it goes?

Some other things that she had said, that also struck me include :

there is no credibility in doing anything, if there are no results. Results, need to be able to be measured..in some form. If the result cant be measured, it is an abstract result.

'commitment is easy when it's new and fresh. but it harder when you have to live with it, each day at a time.'

'commitment is the best cure the exhaustion'

weekend observations

2011-04-04T12:09:00.001+08:00

my observations during the weekend:

As much as i love driving on the highways, i have my conditions:
other then the early hour to be awake, i like driving in the early mornings, as i get to see the sun rise in the horizon (provided i have my sun glasses of course)
i hate and despise driving in the late evenings, as the pitch darkness of the highways both freak me out and stresses me out!
night driving in the city on the other hand, i love :D
if i am the driver, i am the god of music..i like it fast and loud!
i need a can of red bull for every five hours of driving.

HMM..what else?
shopping with a couple who's obtained a new house, is not fun! no matter how much i love them, and they love me, i am being intrusive, and the spare tyre..or as we call it here in Malaysia; the lamp post!!

Ikea in Singapore is soo much more affordable as compared to that in Malaysia, due to the currency exchange rates :(

i can survive without my mobile phone for the weekend :)

i don't like decisions about my actions being made for me, in fact it annoys the hell out of me..

i found it interesting, that my aunts (yes i come from a large family) come from all four quadrants of the behavioural matrix . My mother is an obvious driver (a controller), while her favourite sisters fall into the amiable (supporter) and analyser quadrants.

i strongly believe that kids need a firm hand in discipline, and need to be given firm structure. if not, there is a strong probability that they would become a menace to society. A child in primary school should not (in my perspective) be treated like a young toddler who is unable to differentiate the difference between right and wrong. So if I were to ever do that, please give me a swift kick in the bum!

so happy monday peeps and have a great month ahead!

much love & respect

floating thoughts

2011-03-14T14:28:00.002+08:00

my nights have been riddle with the oddest dreams, on numbers, friendship and cathathic moments
my days puzzled with a response to a loved one who only finds pain everywhere she looks
and i ponder on the gossip of friendship with a peeping tom who has strange fetishes...
and i wonder about the ability of a teenage mind who only sees gloom

its gonna be an interesting ride

much love & respect

QOTD

2011-03-04T17:39:00.001+08:00

"I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love."
— Marilyn Monroe

much love & respect

QOTD

2011-03-04T17:38:00.000+08:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe
much love & respect

QOTD-from JJ

2011-02-11T11:59:00.000+08:00

At the root of virtually all spiritual practice is the notion of forgiveness. Think about every single person who has ever harmed you, cheated you, defrauded you, or said unkind things about you. Your experience of them is nothing more than a thought that you carry around with you. These thoughts of resentment, anger & hatred represent slow, debilitating energies that will disempower you. If you could release them, you would know more peace. - Wayne Dyer

much love & respect

war paint

2011-02-09T12:33:00.002+08:00

I am having a painful week..
One that has been filled with interesting yet true and painful feedback.

You see, when I am overly worried or stressed out about something, especially when that something is something that I cant handle or fix on my own, my mind goes into a whirl-wind ..hence acting a little odd. SO the painful feedback that was given was 'you are the weird kid in the playground that no one wants to play with' *ouch*

Where I am at the moment is, I am feeling stuck..because the choices I have is not something that I like..
I could go,which would result in me loosing my safety net or stay and feel horrid and irresponsible, and having to constantly be confronted, and having to defend my actions.

Thing is, I hate confrontations, and I don't like being taken on..
As a result, I go onto an automatic autopilot mode, which makes me look and act like a robot.. resulting in the weird kid comment.

The stress comes when I find that I am constantly watching myself..what I say, what I do..which makes me act and feel odd/ weird.

As everything else feels like it is out of control, I tend to focus on what I can. Which is how I present myself to the world. How I dress, how I paint on my mask, which is what the world calls make-up. For me, it is a little like war paint. Preparing for battle, preparing to face the world.

This is a lot of food for thought...and I wonder..do you do something similar? What is your war paint?

much love & respect

First big lesson of the year!

2011-01-21T16:21:00.001+08:00

I learned something about space today..I tend to assume that I have it with some, those whom I see on a daily basis, when I don't..
And I learned that I too can communicate clearly, when others don't have it with me..

Lesson learned.

Also, not everyone (even if they seem that they can) can take what they dish out..guess it makes them human..

Another lesson learned..simply because I assumed...I made an ass of 'you' and me!

First big lesson of the year!

much love & respect

QOTD: thanks JJ

2011-01-06T10:53:00.000+08:00

I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls" - Audrey Hepburn

much love & respect

QOTD: thanks JJ

2011-01-06T10:47:00.001+08:00

much love & respect

Happy new year!

2011-01-05T16:46:00.001+08:00

Its the new year! Happy new year peeps!

new week, new year, an abundance of opportunities.
this last Christmas has been a quiet one..a peaceful one..same goes for my new years celebration.

Zani had rented an apartment at Darby Park, which is next to KLCC. Just after i got there, the whole group trouped over to Ampang Park, and had a good dinner, one of abundance, sourcing for a year of abundance..i had steak! yummy!

This was followed by a walk to the KLCC park with Steven, the crowed was overwhelming! But we did manage to get a couple of Minnie Mouse inspired LED headbands which blinks like crazy! This is what triggered my celebratory mood! hehe

one we got back to the apartment, there were so many people around, i had options of playing cards, catching up with friends and even curling up with a movie..i think i did almost all of the above...amid a whole load of camwhoring too!

The majority of us then crammed into the balcony to see the fantastic fireworks display, we were so close, i could actually feel the heat from the displays..

after a few round of charades, in the typical Malaysian style, we went for supper, after which Zani manged to fall into a manhole and had to be brought to a clinic!

On the day itself, I had lunch with my parents, and spent the rest of the day resting and watching movies..

that was my interesting and restful new year!

i have set my goals, and now its about making it SMART goals..
specific, measurable, achievable, risky & responsible & timely!

so how did you kick start your year?

much love & respect

why?

2010-12-28T16:38:00.002+08:00

what's with the current trend?

My single male friends are going for either younger women..

or those of a particular ethnicity..

how do i compete with either?

anyone out there???

much love & respect

goodbye 2010..thank you

2010-12-28T14:41:00.001+08:00

its the last few days of the year, and it is time that i do something to this blog..it has been idle for too long, not because i have not had thoughts to spare, but because i have been keeping busy with various projects.

i herd this on the radio, and choose to share this here..its the last few days of this decade..what was the most memorable moment for you? what did you create?

for me, i think that the biggest moment for me, was on New Years Day 2004. this is where I made a stand, and made a difference by volunteering at a nearby temple. I was dead clear on my intension, even even though i had others stopping me, as its regarded as taboo for a Muslim to enter a temple, i was clear on what i wanted to do and i got it done.

this was another big year for me. i finally got the back bone to stand for myself. i chose to stand by what i believe was right, and not back down. i learned the meaning of coaching someone to grow, and that answers, can be stifling.

i learned that sometimes listening to a friend cry, even if it is cathartic, it can hurt. i have learned to truly count my blessings.

all in all this had been a decade of lessons, but the most occurred in 2010. i learned that i am strong and resilient. i have learned to acknowledge, that in my simple way,i do make a difference.

i have learned that i still want to continue making a difference.
so what is next?

to get a house of my own
to fix my car up, inside and out
to go to Bangkok
to visit Bali once again
To visit the beach at least once in 2011
get a lil black kitten - to be named capt. midnight

What will you do

much love & respect

WIP

2010-11-01T16:56:00.000+08:00

its been a while
a lot has been learned
a lot of changes,a lot of challenges,
i have completed various journeys and continue to embark on others.
Zureena is getting married in about 2 weeks
i have faced my first death in the family
i have learned what it is to coach and be coached
i have learned what is privacy on line
i have learned that being a team player when in a team, is a form of contribution
i have learned that i am a lone ranger at heart
i learned that somewhere along the way i lost all trust in mankind
i also learned that there are those who i can completely trust
i have learned that there are men out there so amazing, they stand for the planet to work
i have learned that i am often completely jaded and lost
i have learned that as a child, i had eyes full of mischief, and it is something i wish to find again.
i have learned that i had allowed someone to chip away at my confidence, and that i am still gaining it back,
i have learned that an emotional scar can last a whole lot longer, even if i had chosen to ignore it.
i have learned that i am not always a nice person, and i do not have sympathy for predators in society.
i have learned that fear causes my stomach to clench and though it is a fantastic diet, its not always a good one.
i have learned that i am at a point where i am ready to admit that i am lonely.
i have noticed that i have been surviving these few months, due to the many lessons.
i have learned that it is truly up to me, as i am the true source of what happens in my life..
I AM A WIP
much love & respect

tshirts

2010-08-13T14:07:00.001+08:00

Well for those who don’t know, I have tendered in my resignation; and now I am left with one week of service at this firm. The boss, being the typical boss is trying to push a pile of stuff on me; which to be fair, is part of my current portfolio. Only thing is, she has grated on my nerves so much over the time I have known her; it is tough to practice the 5^th step of Mastery; which is to live my life by my principles.

Honest to god, I would love to leave her on the lurch. So now, which should I leave; the media summary which is only due in November (after I am long gone); which is a royal pain to compile; or the t-shirt orders?

Since I have said that I would handle the t-shirts, and I would rather hold credit with the CSR partner, I believe that I will handle the t-shirt. (yes I will enjoy watching her squirm handling the stuff that I currently do..but unfortunately she has “tai-chi’ed” (pushed it off) to a junior member of the team; who is actually decent..

t-shirts it is….

Good guys..

2010-08-13T14:01:00.001+08:00

I have recently learnt, that once again, should you put a bunch of individuals together, you are bound to have politics and money issues.

Politics and bitching exists everywhere, from a multinational, the pious and even between friends.

I often found fanatical Christians weird; and in general off balance. For an example; I have an acquaintance who is an active member at church; and even at times goes for mass twice on a Sunday. And yet this individual dabbles in recreational drugs and experimental sex on occasion; and is absolutely ruthless in business and play. Another acquaintance used to attend church multiple times a week, and used to preach on every occasion on how her Lord was a savior, and yet she was a closet alcoholic. In Tamil shows, you will often see the most ruthless of the villains’ performing their prayers.

Then last Sunday, at a wedding dinner; I learned that politics and money does come in even with Muslims. The so called pious and devote are still swayed by money. Given a choice of choosing between two good people, their individual merits were not counted. Instead the financial gain was. This left a whole lot of hurt and strife between. A family member was one of those hurt.

She had helped to keep an eye on two boys on behalf of their families for the last six years. This includes taking them out, delivering food and rent free lodging. She had kept in touch with their parents. She loved them as her own. In return she was told that they boys were getting married to daughters of some friends; a week before the actual wedding date. And the invite was via a quick phone call.

In traditional Asian families, the lack of a formal invite (either by a visit, or at the least a wedding invite) is considered rude and offensive.

Needless to say this relative of mine was disheartened and upset. This is what she told me ‘my girl, I have some to realize, once again at this old age, that money talks. Without it you are nothing to anyone’. To me, it was a very sad statement to hear.

For me, I learnt that politics and money can and will worm its way into any relationship. And I wonder; where is the hope?

Now let's have a discussion

2010-08-06T12:16:00.001+08:00

I just read a speech today, something that both inspired me, and left me with a pang of sadness, and the want to do something different. In short; I was left with the feeling of ‘wow’. The need for change is evident in the country. Like the rest, I am guilty of coffee shop politics, because I grew up in this political climate. I grew up thinking that we are a growing nation. One that needed to be guided.

It was awe inspiring to know that we were once leaders. That our forefathers were the movers and shakers of the century. Ones that were the source of global change. the speech talks about racism.

I remember my first day in primary school. My new friends, were simple that; new friends. I remember wondering why some of them were crying and clinging on to their parents )especially since my mom had walked me to class and kissed me goodbye). Point is, I never realized that there was a difference between my new friends. All I knew was we were all 7 year old little girls.

Only later on, when I was eleven I realize that there was a differentiation between skin color. A classmate asked me why I was so ‘dark’..and suggested that I peeled my skin off, to allow it to grow back in a fairer shade. I remember feeling horrified and upset. I felt discriminated. That was my first taste of racism.

Racism and discrimination today is blatant. I am guilty of the former and a victim of the latter. I grew up where everyone laughed at racist jokes, and I followed the drift. Though I have Chinese friends, there are some Chinese that annoy me. these are the ones who choose not to speak a circular language in a group..in short I find them rude. Having said that I am pretty sure that they would have a reason for this, and they would be able to point out something about me that’s not working too..

And if I really wanted to overcome this annoyance, I could just learnt the language right?

Anyway, going back to the main point, here is the speech by Tengku Razaleigh ; entitled Now Let’s Have A Discussion

2010-07-30T15:27:00.001+08:00

Random questions

· Why Can't Women Put Mascara On With Their Mouths Closed?

· Why is it when a person saiz that they are gonna meet up with their ex, it always sounds scandalous?

2010-07-26T11:35:00.001+08:00

Me thinks that my side profile reminds me of one that would belong to a witch…hmm

Quotes

2010-07-26T11:12:00.001+08:00

Another inspirational speech; this time by Steve Jobs

Quotes

2010-07-26T11:03:00.000+08:00

This is a speech that I found exceptionally powerful, especially at this moment in time, where once again I am playing the leadership program game. The game is an interesting one, where participants have to an extent face failure, as this is when they will learn to succeed. This speech does say it all : The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination by JK Rawlings.

My favourite bits:

“.. failure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work that mattered to me. Had I really succeeded at anything else, I might never have found the determination to succeed in the one arena I believed I truly belonged. I was set free, because my greatest fear had been realized, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.”

“ You might never fail on the scale I did, but some failure in life is inevitable. It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default.”

“.. personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not a check-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications, your CV, are not your life, though you will meet many people of my age and older who confuse the two. Life is difficult, and complicated, and beyond anyone’s total control, and the humility to know that will enable you to survive its vicissitudes.”

“Unlike any other creature on this planet, humans can learn and understand, without having experienced. They can think themselves into other people’s places.”

“We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.”

Today I am grateful for having read this, because it is a reminder on humanity, and about life as it stands.

Much love and respect

QOTD

2010-07-26T10:25:00.001+08:00

“It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default.”

JK Rawlings

Quotes

2010-07-26T10:16:00.001+08:00

If you choose to use your status and influence to raise your voice on behalf of those who have no voice; if you choose to identify not only with the powerful, but with the powerless; if you retain the ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do not have your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families who celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people whose reality you have helped transform for the better. We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.

Source: The Leaky Cauldron

QOTD

2010-07-26T09:24:00.000+08:00

You block your blessings when you let your fear outshine your hopes

- Rev. Run-

2010-07-26T09:19:00.000+08:00

Interesting feedback for d day: the ring on my finger makes ppl assume that I‘m taken..no wonder I don’t get dates!

2010-07-26T09:02:00.001+08:00

Getting quickly annoyed, early in the morning with busybodies, who want to know my story, and yet not willing to tell me who their source was…it’s MY story!

Singapore Food Trip

2010-07-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

much love & respect

LP Fun Quiz 2010

2010-07-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

much love & respect

HISTORY

2010-07-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

much love & respect

2010-07-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

my first try at acrylics...

much love & respect

35 LITTLE ACTS OF KINDNESS

2010-07-23T17:05:00.001+08:00

Little things like these have a ripple effect in life..it’s easy, doesn’t cost much..and has a wonderful effect. Try it today..

1. Say "Good morning" to a person standing next to you in the elevator.
2. Pay the toll for the driver behind you.
3. Take a minute to direct someone who is lost, even though you're rushing.
4. Write a letter to a child who could use some extra attention. Kids love getting mail.
5. Offer to pick up groceries for an elderly neighbor, especially in extreme weather.
6. Give a homeless person your doggie bag.
7. Say "I love you" to someone you love.
8. Put a coin in an expired meter.
9. Help a mother carry her baby stroller up the subway stairs, or hold a door open for her.
10. Each time you get a new item of clothing, give away something old.
11. Take someone's shift as the car-pool parent.
12. Bring your assistant coffee.
13. Out of the blue, send flowers to a friend.
14. Say "please" and "thank you"—and really mean it.
15. When you're on a crowded train or bus, offer your seat to an elderly, disabled or pregnant person.
16. Don't interrupt when someone is explaining herself.
17. Let a fellow driver merge into your lane.
18. Offer to baby-sit for a single mom.
19. Put your shopping cart back in its place.
20. Call or write to a teacher who changed your life.
21. Bring a box of doughnuts to share at the office.
22. Forgive someone a debt–and never bring it up again.
23. Listen with all your senses.
24. Write a note to the boss of someone who helps you, and explain how great a job that person is doing.
25. Simply say "I'm sorry" when you're wrong.
26. Throw away your trash—and someone else's—after a movie, picnic or visit to a park.
27. Encourage someone who seems despondent.
28. Volunteer to take care of a friend's dog while he is vacationing.
29. Help a friend pack for a move.
30. Ask someone "How are you really doing?"—and then really listen to her response.
31. Offer change when the person in front of you at the register comes up short.
32. Before a friend moves away, give her your favorite recipe or quote and a photo of the two of you together.
33. Leave a generous tip for a pleasant waiter.
34. At work, offer to transfer a caller who needs help from another department.
35. Pass along a great book you've just finished reading.

runner

2010-07-23T16:19:00.001+08:00

I’m confused and my brain is on a wondering mode. On this warm and lazy Friday afternoon, I am having a problem crafting a warm and fuzzy yet fun mass email. In short, at the moment, I would rather have a conversation with the little librarian in my head that’s always busy filing information and tid-bits away.

I am kinda excited about a meeting this evening. It should be interesting and exciting to see the shifts and changes in the various people in my team..to see them win.

Since my mind seems to be free (especially since words seem to be in a jumble at the moment and structured thoughts seem to avoid me); it gives me time to wonder and ponder about the runner.

As I wait for answers, I sit with doubt and curiosity. Has the runner shifted in his thoughts? Or is he merely keeping to his name and running. Should I wait for the shift, or accept that he chose the easy way out.

Broken agreements can lead to broken relationships. So either way a relationship is at risk; since trust has already once been broken; should I continue to bank on humanity and risk it all again?

**ps: with all those who are moving and shifting in my life, and causing massive breakthroughs in theirs, I do hope the runner manages to shift and start living life, instead of playing it safe. The person behind the mask is real, powerful and passionate. Currently I see an ass who hides behind anything he can..books and screens included.

2010-07-22T10:18:00.000+08:00

I’ve not seemed to actually wake up this morning. I’m battling my eye lids at the moment..

Event the normal stuff isn’t working, black coffee, sudden shocks, and even typing this email is not working..its hard to type..

Ollie @ Fat Fat

2010-07-22T09:24:00.000+08:00

Ollie in a 'manja' mode, 21 July 2010

much love & respect

run

2010-07-22T08:46:00.000+08:00

Thinks me has a runner…only time will tell..

So question is..what’s next? Do I move on, or get sucked back in??

Tick tock..

new book

2010-07-21T15:29:00.001+08:00

I’ve closed a chapter in my life today..perhaps it can even be described as having ended a book..like it or not, I have to move on.

It is obvious that I have stayed here to long, because I seem to be seen as an extended arm, and not an entity of my own.

I have to say, amidst the butterflies that are creating havoc in my tummy, I am absolutely excited!

It’s definitely a case of ‘what’s next?’

questions

2010-07-21T11:35:00.000+08:00

Learnt something new this week..kinda

Questions and not the answers are the best friends of learning.

This is because once you have the answer, the journey ends. However, if you or I were to stick to the question, there are a whole load more possible answers out there..

So I am sticking to the question..as it leads to many more possibilities.

Hugs and happy hump day!

2010-07-19T10:03:00.001+08:00

Feeling agitated and highly annoyed. An assignment was dumped on my lap because the majority of the team is out sick. Problem is, I am in the blind because I am expected to craft an invite, when I am not given any actual details..simply some vague information…sigh..

But the windging has allowed me to find another solution..so off I go!

From JJ: Because you once liked the quote 'if life hands you lemons, make lemonade...'

2010-07-15T14:46:00.001+08:00

FROM JJ: Because you once liked the quote 'if life hands you lemons, make lemonade...'

much love & respect

qotd

2010-07-15T11:32:00.001+08:00

“It takes more courage to reveal insecurities than to hide them, more strength to relate to people than to dominate them, more 'manhood' to abide by thought-out principles rather than blind reflex. Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles and an immature mind.”

Alex Karras

2010-07-14T13:29:00.001+08:00

I know that I have been pretty much of an MIA mode lately, however a whole load has been going on.

I have been trying out a whole load of new things which has been keeping me busy.

· I finally did the Mastery at Asiaworks.

· I am participating in the LP Charity Fun Quiz

· I was at Universal Studio, Singapore last weekend

· I finally made it to Holland Village Singapore

· I have given my first try at acrylic paint, and I am liking it.

· I am senioring LP 138 which is the next LP.

· My lap top battery is pretty much dead at home, so I need to lug to office one home should I wish to use it

· Scha my housemate will be getting married next year

· Zureena is going nuts organizing her own wedding.

· I finally got my first pair of Guess jeans, and they do look good.

· My workload over the last three weeks has been just plain ol nuts

Ok..now I need to get back to work..

2010-07-06T18:38:00.000+08:00

Overheard in the office

It’s so expensive to be beautiful! Are you sure it’s worth it?

funny

2010-07-02T17:33:00.000+08:00

The culture is..the un-jaded juniors are the ones who bother to wish others a good day, where else those who have been around the block, or rather currently taking that walk just do it from the superficial point of view

QOTD

2010-07-02T16:59:00.000+08:00

Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom. Mastering others is strength; mastering yourself is true power.”

overload

2010-06-30T13:46:00.000+08:00

I’m having a system overload day..

One of those days where things don’t seem to go right

Where i'm all confused

Newly learnt life lessons, way’s of being, etc are all driving me nuts

It’s one of those days where I wish I could just stay at home and work from there

But question is..what would I do?

My brain is in such trauma, I’m actually afraid to pay my bills..

Sigh..

What a way to enter a new decade..

Eeekk....sssssssss

and that's the boss??

2010-06-25T09:14:00.000+08:00

How am I to respect a senior that is unaware that a contract of any form needs to be stamped with the company stamp, and after two years, doesn’t know where it is located?

This is the same person who just last week discovered that Windows does come with a search function, and still does not know how to use the fax machine..

>_<

rant

2010-06-24T13:36:00.001+08:00

Not liking – at the office..

Tends to have a negative effect on my mood at all times..

I want a break..and – won’t let me have time off

Gggrrrr…. – is a bad leader..

2010-06-24T13:28:00.001+08:00

I've never seen a smiling face that was not beautiful.

Author Unknown

Sharks.should I say crocodiles.

2010-06-24T09:51:00.001+08:00

The term often used on cooperation’s would be ‘a corporate shark’. And yet, sometimes these so called sharks act more like crocodiles. The look like quiet unassuming wallflowers, who would not be capable of hurting a fly, or moving still water. And yet, when they do, all hell will break loose.

Ever met one? A quiet unassuming man, who would easily mash with the wall paper, and yet can be a dangerous flirt…at the very least..

On true love:

2010-06-23T11:43:00.001+08:00

Even after all this time,
the sun never says to the earth,
"You owe me."
Look what happens with a love like that.
It lights the whole sky.
- Hafiz

QOTD

2010-06-22T09:38:00.000+08:00

Today, give a stranger one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine he sees all day.

~Quoted in P.S. I Love You, compiled by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

QOTD

2010-06-21T16:19:00.001+08:00

Every time you suppress some part of yourself or allow others to play you small, you are in essence ignoring the owner's manual your creator gave you and destroying your design.

Oprah

wardrobe malfunction..

2010-06-18T12:15:00.000+08:00

Could someone tell the child that a purple shirt + a beige and navy blue skirt + black strappy heels does not work?

Nor does a high waisted umbrella skirt over big hips + formal black shirt..

I get that the whole retro look is in, but it’s called retro chic, and not ‘I just took over my mom’s wardrobe from when I was a kid”.

Yes I am being bitchy..but she’ s such a tell tale brat!

WTH...

2010-06-18T11:28:00.000+08:00

Was just told not to go home early in order to ensure that I don’t disturb a visiting member’s personal space. Seriously? WTH…talk bout crossing boundaries…I have half the mind to intentionally accidentally go home early..ha-ha

QOTD

2010-06-18T09:41:00.000+08:00

I believe that the very purpose of life is to be happy.

From the very core of our being, we desire contentment.

In my own limited experience I have found that the more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being.

Cultivating a close, warmhearted feeling for others automatically puts the mind at ease.

It helps remove whatever fears or insecurities we may have and gives us the strength to cope with any obstacles we encounter.

It is the principal source of success in life.

Since we are not solely material creatures, it is a mistake to place all our hopes for happiness on external development alone.

The key is to develop inner peace.

-Dalai Lama-

SOME FOOD FOR THOUGHT..SOMETHING TO AGREE OR DISAGREE WITH THIS WEEKEND. HAPPY FRIDAY GUYS..

sunshine-less

2010-06-17T12:06:00.000+08:00

Having trouble seeing sunshine today..

Yes I am in a do-me state..whereby I just wanna sit in front of the TV or lye in bed under the comforter, while someone else attempts at my problem, wiping my slate clean so that I can start afresh.

An volunteers?

stress!!

2010-06-17T11:51:00.001+08:00

Stress!

That’s the word of the day. All three sisters seem to be dwelling on this in major parts of our lives.

One is dealing with marital issues. I shall not dwell on this as it’s a personal issue, and not mine to divulge. However, it’s a big enough headache for the rest of the family to back off on all other issues.

One is dealing with social issues, on doing what she wants, versus dealing with traditional expectations on her wedding.

One is dealing with work issues, unreasonable workload for one. Just as she seems to think that’s she has gotten into the flow if life and work, the ground under her feet has been rudely removed..and shes scrambling for balance and grip! Falling on her ass, without an alternative (since there are massive bills to be paid ) is NOT an option.

As for me, I am one of the above. And I so need my vices. Nothing seems to be in hand. Im at work, on a shoe string budget so I cant buy anything. And I have a bruised foot that hurts so gym is not currently a viable option!

2010-06-16T14:05:00.001+08:00

"Some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies." - Sex in the City

Oh, the Places You'll Go! - Dr. Seuss

2010-06-16T11:16:00.001+08:00

Congratulations! Today is your day.
You're off to Great Places! You're off and away!
You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself any direction you choose.

You're on your own. And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go.
You'll look up and down streets. Look 'em over with care.
About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there."

With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,
you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street.
And you may not find any you'll want to go down.
In that case, of course, you'll head straight out of town.

It's opener there in the wide open air.

Out there things can happen and frequently do
to people as brainy and footsy as you.
And when things start to happen, don't worry. Don't stew.
Just go right along. You'll start happening too.

OH! THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!

You'll be on your way up! You'll be seeing great sights!
You'll join the high fliers who soar to high heights.
You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.

Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don' t
Because, sometimes, you won't.

I'm sorry to say so but, sadly, it's true
and Hang-ups can happen to you.
You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch.
And your gang will fly on. You'll be left in a Lurch.

You'll come down from the Lurch with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are, then, that you'll be in a Slump.
And when you're in a Slump, you're not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself is not easily done.

You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they're darked.
A place you could sprain both you elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?

And IF you go in, should you turn left or right...
or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find,
for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

You can get so confused that you'll start in to race
down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.

The Waiting Place...
...for people just waiting.

Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come,
or a plane to go or the mail to come,
or the rain to go or the phone to ring,
or the snow to snow or waiting around for a Yes or a No
or waiting for their hair to grow.

Everyone is just waiting.

Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night
or waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jake
or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a sting of pearls, or a pair of pants
or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.

Everyone is just waiting.

NO! That's not for you!

Somehow you'll escape all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places where Boom Bands are playing.
With banner flip-flapping, once more you'll ride high!
Ready for anything under the sky.
Ready because you're that kind of a guy!

Oh, the places you'll go!

There is fun to be done! There are points to be scored.
there are games to be won.
And the magical things you can do with that ball
will make you the winning-est winner of all.

Fame!

You'll be famous as famous can be,
with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.

Except when they don't.
Because, sometimes, they won't.

I'm afraid that some times you'll play lonely games too.
Games you can't win 'cause you'll play against you.

All Alone!

Whether you like it or not,
Alone will be something you'll be quite a lot.
And when you're alone, there's a very good chance
you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon,
that can scare you so much you won't want to go on.

But on you will go though the weather be foul
On you will go though your enemies prowl
On you will go though the Hakken-Kraks howl
Onward up many a frightening creek,
though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak.

On and on you will hike and I know you'll hike far
and face up to your problems whatever they are.

You'll get mixed up, of course, as you already know.
You'll get mixed up with many strange birds as you go.

So be sure when you step. Step with care and great tact
and remember that Life's a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.

And will you succeed?
Yes! You will, indeed! (98 and 3 / 4 percent guaranteed.)

KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!

So... be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,
you're off to Great Places! Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting. So...get on your way!

---Dr. Seuss

QOTD

2010-06-16T09:38:00.001+08:00

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own. And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go."

- Dr. Seuss-

Happy Hump Day...

QOTD

2010-06-15T14:23:00.001+08:00

Life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile at it. ~Author Unknown

2010-06-15T13:56:00.001+08:00

"Some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies."

- Sex in the City-

2010-06-14T14:54:00.001+08:00

Random:

I woke up this morning thinking :jellybeans

Why? I have no clue..

wonderings of my mind

2010-06-09T10:13:00.001+08:00

Randomness and wonderings on my mind..bits and pieces of conversations that have flowed into my thoughts over the last few weeks

Parental statements

· Bringing you up was a nightmare. I have lived with so much pain (over the years, therefore ), it doesn’t matter, as I will only look after myself so I can pray (and spend time with God).

· It is called womb debt (therefore you shall forevermore be in debt to me, till the day one of us dies).

· I’m old and therefore earned the right to be cranky. Deal with it ( in regards to attitude and mood swings)

Possible response to the above statements: “I am young and therefore emotional and irrational”

Doncha think that the above statement would be enough to stop someone on their tracks? Hehe ;)

What do I think about the whole situation?

· This parent is playing martyr. Sacrificing for the word, without warrant, then complaining that the sacrifice was not appreciated. In short, to me, this person is playing victim. In this sense, not acting responsibly for each action. Doing, as the person would please and yet complaining when the results obtained is not what was expected.

What is a definition of a date?

· The dictionary states: a social appointment, engagement, or occasion arranged beforehand with another person: to go out on a date on Saturday night.

· Friends define it as a social engagement where two parties who are interested in each other meet up, with a possible romantic innuendo.

· For me, I can’t tell the difference. There has been instances where I thought it was a plain ol social engagement, and the other person thought there was a romantic connotation, and vice versa. (>_<)

What is judgment?

· To me, people tend to judge others (notice other peoples traits) when they see a reflection of their own traits. For me, righteous individuals simply grate on my nerves. This is because I myself am an extremely righteous person, and it’s a trait in me that I don’t particularly like. Geddit?

· So the next time you meet someone who is extremely judgmental, take pity, because more often then not there is not much that they like when they look into a mirror.

Is there a correct response when someone you are attracted to suggest a relationship of friends with benefits?

· A friend of mine said that she was angry, disappointed and most of all hurt by the statement/ request. To her it was a massive insult, as she had been degraded to a sex object.

· However, she did state that she was cynical about love affairs cause she always look for the happily ever after nothing in between.

· Having said that, I guess she is also right that should a guy be interested, as in actually interested and not just fascinated with the body) it should be more then a romp in the sack. A romp in the sack, just to fulfill and biological urge, can be done with anyone. Depending on the individuals, it could be a one off with a stranger, where there are no actual emotions or, it could be done with a friend, whereby anything related to the act is blacked out from memory the moment the act is complete.

On issues?

· Everyone has issues, and no one lives a full on charmed life, simply because god is fair, and therefore everyone has problems. Granted, some are larger then others, but it is still a problem. Should individual A live in a bubble, where things run on perfection, a glitch could be a massive mountain of an issue. However, for the rest of us, when we are used to lots of glitches in life, that particular glitch would merely be a bump on the road.

· For some people financial issues could mean being unable to afford a new bag, or a holiday, or even the latest LV. For others, the issue would be more pressing, in the sense of daily needs, such as food and petrol.

I’m guessing that this is enough food for thought in one post. Let me know what you think..

QOTD

2010-06-08T09:58:00.000+08:00

Patience is not passive; on the contrary, it is active; it is concentrated strength

Edward G. Bulwer-Lytton

QOTD

2010-06-02T09:44:00.001+08:00

The ideals that have lighted my way time after time and have given me new courage to face life cheerfully, have been Kindness, Beauty, and Truth." -Albert Einstein